Validation is sweet

I don't want to complain about my job, but the fact is that it's difficult in ways I never expected and are very hard to put into words, especially to people who have never before worked in ministry. I was talking to a pastor the other day, asking her how she has the stamina to continue her job for years and years without getting discouraged. "Only by God's grace," she said. "Sundays are my best and worst days. Some days I just sit in my offic after church and cry and cry. Then I get up and get ready for the next week." It's exhausting to have passion and a desire to teach and inspire and have the people you serve not care. They attend because it's what they do but not because they thrist to know more.
But hearing these stories is the most encouraging thing for me. If these great saints can serve for years and struggle and cry and continue joyfully, then I'm doing things right! My brief time in this church is not useless. I can be faithful to follow the call and not worry about the fruit.

I am so excited for the upcoming camp and missions week!! Finally, the lessons are written, supplies purchased, projects all planned out and a weekend retreat to top it all off! To my astonishment, all the details have fallen into place. I know this week will have great potential and God may use it to change hearts as He did mine when I was on Jr. High youth trips. I can hardly believe that I'm leaving for Camp in two days. It will be an intense time encouraging middle-school and Senior high girls, but at least I don't have to make decisions! :) Overall, the next few weeks will roll right along, and with all the ups and downs, I'm glad to be a part of this.